hello people..
its been quite a while since i have really had an update on my poor old blog..

4 months into my national service life, can't say that it is not not great, but i can't say its great either.

After BMT, i was expecting to be posted to some random army unit, doing some random chiong sua stuff.
then, a mini miracle fell on me!

i got posted to the navy ;)
no more FBO!

still it has been quite a bit of change..
realised how much i miss home everytime i'm in camp.

i guess some of the things that make you have an attachment to a place is for one, love.
weekends are the best days of the week, because my family, especially my mom, would be home, doing the laundry and making home cooked food.
even though she doesnt say it, but i know that she just wants the best for me during weekends because i am always not home other days of the week.

so i guess its a powerful sort of love that i would miss everytime i'm back in camp.
not to say that i dont have friends there, but i feel very detached and very uncommitted to everything i do now. i can safely say that i do not have any motivation to do anything.
it is as though my life has frozen for the past month, and will be frozen for the rest of the 2 yrs.

it was very easy to think, in the past, that how wonderful would it be to be able to study overseas, and live there for months. i thought that coming home once a year or half a year would be great.
now, things couldn't be more different.
i find my self pining for home as the weary days drags by.
i find myself wanting to be home everyday, for the simple reason of being back home, more than anything else.

hopefully i can get a good vocation that allows me to stay out daily, be it at which ever camp.
maybe i'll get a camp that is far from my place, or i may get lucky.

maybe i'll be 2nd time lucky and not get posted to a vessel, but it would be too much of a coincidence wouldn't it?

i guess i'm boring you with my NS rantings, but its just that my life is so full of NS that i hardly have any time for anything else.

i would think, that after my NS is over, and my civilian working life starts, that things would be more interesting again.