i am at a cross roads in life.
should i continue to do accounting shit after my polytechnic education, or should i continue business, or should i head to MDIS to take hons in biomedical sciences.

i am extremely confused and yes, i am weighing my pros and cons for each of the above mentioned alternatives.
i always believe you should like what you are doing, and that to pursue it because you are living your life.
but then, i do not know if i really like biomedical sciences or biology.
accounting even though is not fun to study, but at the end of the day, when it comes to mugging, it gets so much easier because its based on a logical concept. and of course, your hands will be spared from the barrage of words that you need to unleash when u take other humanities or other scientific modules where by you have to EXPLAIN.

oh fug it, maybe ill do a business degree after all.
I'll have to check out the various degrees on offer though, not sure if i want to do do something for 3 years that i do not like, and start to regret and bore my friends with my incessant nagging about the wrong choices that i have and how fate has dealt me a cruel blow each time i choose to further my education at a certain institute.

so far i am considering several universities, including SIM, SMU. NUS and NTU, both are out of the question due to the simple fact that my GPA isnt good enough to quality for them.
nevertheless, i believe other private universities offer degrees as recognised as the local universities, although the cost may be a deterrent..

i seriously do not know if i realy want to do accounting.
i HATE to say it but.. i actually enjoy mugging for accounting especially when u have the answers and questions side by side, and when you do get the correct answer, you really feel you're at the top of the world.
i guess this is just a temporary syndrome.
its just so funny that normal tutorials bore me because 1. i dont do them.
2. most of the time i duno wat the teacher is talking about
3. i just feel so bored and feel so irritated by the different adjustments and whatever shit.

but HEY, i like accounting already. suddenly adjustments seem so fun. suddenly mugging seems nice.
i guess at the end of the day, its the reward that counts.
i just do not see any thing positive from doing your tutorials, not to mention loss of playing time and wasting of your brain my cramming digits after digits.
however, when it comes to the exams, you really have the impetus to just study and study because you can actually see how it directly influences your grade. tutorials, according to me, does not have that kind of 'power' to influence your grade, even though practice and consistency is something everyone would preach; I WANT INSTANT GRATIFICATION!
hah, the perils of living in the IT era, where everything can be gotten almost instantly online.
you kill someone at the click of the mouse.
you jump by pressing the 'space bar'
you get a spell by pressing a 'hot key'



speaking of today, yes, i was at woodlands library, because i finally felt so extremely guilty about not going there yesterday and not doing much revision then. only did about 4 questions late last night and felt that the entire day was wasted, even though i i thought i needed a 'well-deserved' break. apparently the 'well-deserved' break is so long that i am now miserably behind revision time. i need to run through another round of revision, which should take shorter time, because i already know what to do, just needed to refresh my memory and remember some last minute things.

oh and yes today was FUN!
everyday at the Woodlands Library was FUN and IS fun and WILL be fun.
i do not know why but i suddenly feel that poly is a nice place to be.

OH CRAPS.
my mom just asked me to stop, and made the remark that 'poly will be over in a few days'
bah =.= i guess i have to break the news to her that i would be graduating so fast after all.
man. i feel guilty about not telling her the truth now.
this sucks =(